04/23/2024 12:16 PM  Someone is calling you Christine placed her hand on her youngest son's shoulder "It's all going to be alright, bambino." Bambino. The only time Christine ever used that term was to console one of her children during some of their darkest times. Earlier that day Ender had arrived to the home he has shared Amelia for the last year - building a life with her as they raised their daughter together. Something didn't seem right as he stepped through the front doors. Stumbling back he took in the site before him. Pulling his phone from his pocket, dialing his mother's number. "Ma, I'm gonna need you keep Ev for a little longer." his voice was softer than he anticipated. "Everything alright?" She replied. "I'll explain when I get there". Alright? How could everything be alright? Nothing prepares you for walking into your home and seeing who is supposed to be the love of your life bent over the sofa by her pilates instructor. 'He's gay babe' my ass, something about him was always off. Now we know. Ender took a mental note to burn the sofa later. Two weeks in. How do you know when something is completely over. Is it when they are distant.  When you are distant. Or is it a hope and a prayer that it's not. Even when you know deep down that it is. That loving you could be fatal. Is it when you feel completely hopeless inside.  Like nothing you do or say will make a difference. Is it when you feel like your world is crashing down, and there's nothing you can do to stop it. Everything's not okay. This is not okay. We are not okay. petending doesn't make this any easier.  Pretending that loving you wasn't going to be fatal. Holding onto nothing. You gave just enough, just enough to make it better. Why'd you have to be like that. Loving you was fatal. You wanted another piece. And foolishly it was given it to you. Just take a piece and go. It won't be different this time around. He knows he meant nothing. Loving you was always going to be fatal and he was just to blind to see it. Lightning flashed through the sky followed by the low rumble. It had to be tonight of all nights that it decided to storm. Perfect setting for a break down. Everything that he had done up to this point to keep himself together had now failed. Collapsing to the ground his fingers wrapped around the pendant that hung around his neck. The first thing she ever gave him. His whole world felt like it was crashing around him and there was nothing she could do to stop it. Sometimes things happen and you have no control over it. You just have to feel it and let it happen. You have to come to terms with the fact that it's not always all love, sunshine, rainbows and butterflies. There was always a darker side of things. Ripping the pendant from his neck, no use in keeping it now, he tossed it across the room. The soft clang as it hit the wall ripped through him. It was over. It was really over. Three months later. Everyone would have thought it would have taken much longer than a month to get over everything. But truth be told, it had been over long before. To everyone else they had a picture perfect relationship but behind closed doors it was nothing but a mess. It wasn't unlike Ender to have to call his mother or one of his brothers to come get their daughter so she wouldn't be exposed to the fighting. But for that little girl he was willing to do whatever took to make it work. Until now there had only been rumors of someone being unfaithful. One month to pull himself together, clean up the house - wipe every memory of Amelia from his life. One month of curving everytime Everly asked for her mother. No one expected Amelia to abandon her, but there she was wanting nothing to do with their child. Every attempt that was made went unanswered, no text, email or calls. Nothing. During this time, without Ender's knowledge, Reece had dug into why Amelia would leave her cozy life with him. "Don't hate me but I did something" Reece said as he slid the envelope across the counter. Why did everyone have this habit of giving him new through an envelope. "The f*** did you do now?" Sighing he picked up the envelope, pulling out the contents of it. "First of all, how did you get her phone records? Scratch that. I don't want to know." With a little smirked Reece shrugged his shoulders "Ways little brother. I have my ways. If she didn't look exactly like you, poor child, I'd recommend a dna test". Reece tilted his head in the direction of the livingroom where Everly was currently engrossed in some TV show. "Do you not remember the whole thing? Me finding out she was mine? Mom crying, not sure if she was horrified or happy." "She was horrified her that precious baby boy" Reece paused making a gagging noise "banged and knocked up some random girl. Not going to lie, thought I'd be the first to do that. Not you. Kind of proud of you baby brother" "Stop f***ing calling me that" Ender huffed while rolling his eyes. "Good god man, you need to re-f***ing-lax." Picking his phone up off the counter, he pulled up Amelia's contact.   I see everything so clearly now. I could have given you the world. My heart was open for you. But instead of taking it and letting me love you, you plunged a knife into my chest. I was never what you wanted. I was a temporary fix. Just someone you stung along until the one you actually wanted took you back. I was always going to be your second choice. I can't believe i let you into my life only for you to f*** me over like this. Go f*** yourself, Amelia.   "What are you writing a damn novel?" Letting out the breath he had been holding in, he slid the phone across the counter. "Read." Reece took Ender's phone, skimming over the text on the screen. "Such an angry little hobbit. I love it. Annnd send"  "Reece what the f*** did you do?!"  "Uh sent it?" "F***. I didn't want to send it you d*ckhead. It's called letting your emotions out. Like the whole write a letter but don't send it kind of thing. Didn't they teach you that in rehab?" "Oops? It's fine. Don't get your panties twisted. Uh...." "God what now?" "She's calling." "What?" "Amelia, she's calling." "I'm gonna have a heart attack." "I'm just kidding. Jesus, relax. But someone is calling you." 0 Comments

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04/03/2024 09:22 PM  Flaunt- The Bare Essentials What happens when you mix bare-bones style with sheer audacity? You get Ender Rhodes Flaunt-style. Fans had already fallen for the Rhodes look when the singer-songwriter showed up on the cover of Flaunt magazine, sporting little aside from some pendants and skull jewelry for men. Now he's as much as a fashion icon as a multi-talented artist. Fans may remember the former Disney star as the youngest brother in the successful pop trio Rhodes Brothers. Ender Rhodes is the definition of sex appeal in the latest issue of Flaunt Magazine. The 26-year-old singer channels Mark Wahlberg’s famous Calvin Klein ads from 1992 in the steamy shirtless pictures. Rhodes stares at the camera and bites his lips as he drops his ripped jeans and grabs his crotch for effect. In the interview, Rhodes tells the magazine he wants people to have sex to his music. “I really try to be aware of the purpose of each song,” said the Rhodes Brothers vocalist. “There are songs on my record that I want people to have sex to, and songs people can listen to when they’re pissed off. And I think that’s the beautiful thing about music: that in those moments, you hear it and it elevates the scenario.” On the cover, Rhodes gives the camera bedroom eyes and flexes his abs — something he’s been working on lately. Rhodes packed on 15 pounds of muscle in two months through twice-daily cardio and strength training sessions followed by six to seven hours of MMA training. "I'm the kind of person that loves a challenge and I had reached a point right before it when I was just ready,'' he said. "My grandfather, who I was really close to, passed. And right after that everything fell into line. I feel like he was orchestrating all of it, which is really kind of special.'' Rhodes girlfriend, socialite Savannah Kendrick, also helped keep him motivated through the grueling workouts, despite some heckling from his famous family. "My brothers were kind of making fun of me a little bit as I was doing it because I was getting really big,'' he said. He said his buff new image is just a piece of his career reboot. Rhodes' new music is also a departure from his purity ring, boy band days: Though he has released albums apart from his brothers in the past, on his new album he's singing mostly of love and lust. Rhodes channeled soul and R&B flair from some of his favorite artists like Stevie Wonder, Prince, Lionel Richie and the Bee Gees. "When the band broke up we all went off and did our own thing. Reece started DNCE, Caleb started a family, and I started my solo career. We all kind of went through some sh*t. But now here we are, back together. Touring. Having the time of our lives." When asked about fatherhood Rhodes had this to say. "I absolutely love being a father. It wasn't something I really saw myself as but I wouldn't change it for the world. My daughter is my pride and joy." You can catch Rhodes Brothers on the rest of their North American tour before they take a two month break and head across the pond. 0 Comments

04/03/2024 09:12 PM  march 2021 Staring at the documents in his hand there was no way this was happening. A court order to determine paternity. "What the f***" he muttered. Looking from the paperwork to his lawyer. "It's court-ordered, Mr. Rhodes. You have to comply." "Yeah but I mean . . . This isn't the first time-" "She claims to have photographed evidence that you two have been . . . intimate and have corresponded". The older male pulled photocopies from the envelope sliding them across the desk. There in full color was Ender and this mystery woman in compromising positions. The memory of photos being taken was very foggy to none. The only memory that was there was waking up in the morning was a raging headache, having what he thought was a used condom still half hanging on, and the phone call to his security to pick him up. He had looked through their messages afterward but like everyone else she was nothing but a memory. There was nothing to panic about. "Take the test and when it comes back that you aren't the father we will go from there. Don't worry Mr. Rhodes. We will handle this." Ten days later he was called to come into the office once again. "We have the results, Mr. Rhodes." Ender nodded, signaling him to open the envelope. Clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth his lawyer pulled the papers from the envelope, scanning over the documents. Ender watched his face for any signs of what the results were. Taking his glasses from his face his lawyer sighed "We have a predicament on our hands Mr. Rhodes. it seems. According to this you are the father of two-month-old Everly Rose". Everly Rose, at least she chose a beautiful name for this little girl. "I . . . what?" Telling his parents wasn't going to be easy. Reece was the f*** up, not Ender. It should be Reece calling a family meeting, not him. Reece telling his family he got some girl pregnant and has a kid, not Ender. Leg bouncing as he nervously took a drag from the cigarette, his filthy hidden habit. "You really shouldn't be smoking" Caleb's voice made Ender jump. It was no secret that the -insert age- enjoyed a cigar from time to time but the cigarettes were something else, something that only happened when nothing else could calm his nerves and he needed to be sober, a cigarette was it this time. "Mom and dad here?" Asher nodded. "Mom's making tea. Reece said he'll get here when he gets here. In Reece land that's in the next ten minutes. You okay little brother?" Caleb sat down next to him, placing his hand on his shoulder. "I uhm . . . I f***ed up." He murmured. The snort Reece let out made Ender look up from his hands, sending his older brother a glare. "Yeah Reece, I f***ed up. Sounds great doesn't it?" The anger towards his brother started to rise, the nervous feeling in his chest turning to rage. The hand on his shoulder from their mother, calming him a little. "What happened, sweetheart?" Her voice was always so soothing. "I uhm . . . I . ." God this was hard. Taking yet another deep breath, it was now. "I found out two weeks ago that someone I slept with last year." His mother unintentionally gripped his shoulder. "What she gave you an std?" Reece snorted as he laughed. "Reece." Their mother said in her motherly warning tone. "Go on, sweetheart." Ender nodded. "I don't have an std. But about a month and a half ago she gave birth and demanded a paternity test be done. The results came back yesterday. I'm the father to a little girl." After a few moments he looked up at his mother. "I'm so sorry." He could see the disappointment in her eyes. The cackle Reece let out was quickly shushed by their father who at this point hadn't said a word. "Reece Adam Rhodes." His voice boomed through the silence. Looking from his mother to his father he took a deep breath. "She'll be here in about an hour to meet her." Time seemed to stand still. Ender sat beside his mother picking at the skin around his nails. Somehow their father convinced Reece to not say anything else. The doorbell chimed through the silent house. Ender looked at his mother who immediately got to her feet rushing to the door. Behind the door stood his lawyer, another woman, who Ender later found out was his daughter's mother's lawyer, and a petite blonde holding a car seat. They were quickly ushered into the house. Before any words were spoken his lawyer pulled out a stack of documents. "Nondisclosure forms and such". He handed the paperwork to the other lawyer, her nodding her head as she read them over before handing them to the blonde to sign before being handed to Ender to sign. The trust he had in this man, he immediately picked up a pen and signed them. After a couple of moments the blonde took the small child from the car seat. Ender eyeing her as she did. He vaguely remember her. Without a word she handed the infant over to him. In an instant, he fell in love. Looking down at this tiny thing in his arms looking back up at him. "She's beautiful" he whispered. 0 Comments

04/03/2024 09:09 PM  musings. WRITING March 2021. Flaunt- The Bare Essentials Someone is calling you.  TMZ 001.   CHARACTER STUDIES/HC What's in your phone? 0 Comments

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