02/17/2024 12:16 PM  need a favor.   this is in response to dakota's drabble, which you can find here. [i also added her link, because why not? she's a fantastic writer and a total sweetheart, so add her if you haven't already jason had a bad feeling in the pit of her stomach as soon as he put the girls in the car to take them to his mother's for the day. dakota always went with him to drop the girls off, if nothing else, so she could at least say hello to her mother in law. so, when she said she was staying home and kissed the girls, jason knew something was up and he didn't like it one bit. jason knew dakota was struggling, knew that the negative pregnancy tests were f***ing with her head. he knew bennett's first birthday coming up was something she's been struggling with. dakota was someone who is still so used to internalizing her struggles and putting on a bright smile because no one really questioned her about it - no one but jason. not being able to shake the feeling the closer he got to his mom's, he made a quick trip to drop the girls off and said goodbye to them before heading back home. breaking the speed limit slightly as he drove, jason would attempt to call dakota a few times to no avail, a defeated and concerned sigh escaping his lips as he left her a voicemail in the hopes she'd listen to it. "don't do this to me, d, not after everything we have been through. not after you defeated addictions that should've killed you. not after we've gotten our family and our happy ending. i know you're struggling, but not as if you're the only one, especially about us having another baby. i love you more than words can say, don't let your voices win when the girls and i are screaming begging you to stay with us - to stay with me. i love you." hanging up, jason felt his eyes start to fill up with tears before he stopped at a red light, a loud groan and a slight punch to his steering wheel as he felt stuck in the moment. every second he's stuck at this light is longer dakota is there alone, the longer dakota could be doing anything, going back to old vices, and him not there to stop her. maybe she's doing something simple like cleaning the house, but jason's gut feeling is she's doing something she shouldn't. as soon as the light turned green, jason floored it before taking every back road to his house -- he could get away with the speed limit not being something he worried about. the entire drive, he silently prayed to himself that she was okay. even if she was drinking, she wouldn't overdo it and he'd find her passed our or worse from a binge. he needed a favor - a miracle - for her to be okay. all but drifting into his driveway, jason quickly parked the car and turned it off before running into the house. "dakota? baby?" he searched every room downstairs before running up the stairs the best his knees would let him and made a quick dash for the bedroom. seeing the bathroom door locked made his heart drop, jason quickly grabbing the doorknob before he realized it was locked. "f***..." he thought, taking a few steps back before lifting his right leg up and kicking just above the doorknob to bust the door open - it can be replaced, his wife can't be. kicking it a second time to open the door, jason would slide himself in enough to see the bottle of jack daniels on the floor and dakota beside it. "no, no, you can't leave me..." quickly bending down, dakota's stirs and whimpers showed she had just falling asleep, jason's eyes quickly checking to see half the bottle of jack gone and all he could assume was that she drank it. sighing softly, he'd take his arms and slide them underneath dakota's neck and her knees before picking her up off the bathroom floor. being careful where he stepped to avoid the wood from the door and the bottle, jason slowly walked out of the bathroom and over to her side of the bed before laying her down in it. slipping her shoes off where he stood, he'd climb over her to get into bed. falling beside her, jason quickly pulled a half asleep dakota into his arms and rocked her slowly.  "shhh, i'm right here, sugar. it's all going to be okay. we'll get that baby, alright? i just need you not to do this to me again, our girls need you. i need you."   (c) made by creativian 0 Comments

02/17/2024 10:02 PM  crossroads. jason's eyes couldn't dare leave the scoreboard as the sounds of the buccaneers fans cheering due to their team moving on echoed in his mind. everything else seemed silent. he heard his teammates talking to him, although he couldn't dare figure out what they were saying.  jason commented that this year would be his last - but could it be now? after last year's lost to the kansas city chiefs - and his brother, bennett - jason said this year was going to be the last. he was getting older, the position he's played for years has taken a toll on his body in a way he didn't even think would happen. he wants to be able to get on the floor and play with his little girls as often as they ask. not be laid up on the couch with aches and pains, and even injuries because he can't walk away from the first love of his life or can he? his eyes fell upon dakota, the love of his life, and his little girls in the crowd of disappointed eagles fans, his heart slowly forming together while he found his only comfort place besides the football field - his family. his helmet rested in the grasp of his left hand, his eyes filled with the emotions that everything today brought onto him, because this was more than just a playoff game. to jason, this could've been the last few games of his career, and god knows he would've wanted to walk out a two time super bowl champion. a soft sigh escaped his lips as he eventually reached his family, his glossed eyes softening at the sight of his little girls - their cute soundproof earmuffs on as they were grabbing at him. his biggest fans, besides his parents and dakota. the reasons he was even debating retirement to start with is because mentally he feels he can go for years. finally pulling away to head into the tunnel to go back to the locker room, jason's mind was racing. how was this the team that was once the only undefeated team in the nfl? what happened that made the team's rock-solid glue fall apart so quickly? was it nick? jalen? jason himself? so many different possibilities, so many fingers that could get pointed at everyone on the team and the coaching staff, but at the end of the day none of it mattered. the walk was quiet, almost silent, and even though the fans were packing up and leaving. the sounds were rather loud, but nothing was louder than the debate going on in his head. he said that this year was his last, he said that he was hanging up his jersey and helmet and walking away at the end of the season. but, there was no way he could walk away after a team fell apart and he had no firm hands to give a team he spent the last thirteen years building up. can he?   (c) made by creativian 0 Comments

02/17/2024 10:02 PM  selfish. the confetti guns blazed across the field in las vegas, famly members of the back to back super bowl winners stormed the field like jason was with his family. he was happy for his brother, lord knows he was, but he couldn't shake that feeling in the pit of his stomach, that feeling of jealously. it should've been him up here. the eagles went from being the best team in football, being the only undefeated team, to losing a wildcard game that jason isn't entirely sure he wanted to go out on. he decided he wasn't going to make any official announcement of his retirement - or lack there of - until after the bowl due to him not wanting to pull the attention off the amazing teams that both san fransico and kanas city had - he didn't want to pull the attention off his brother.  but he should be standing under all the confetti with his family running to find him. last year was one thing, brother against brother and the better team won. but this year was supposed to be stronger, this year was supposed to be philadelphia's year, and yet here he is on the sidelines, not walking onto the field as a center of a football team, but of a brother to someone who just won the lombardi for the second time in two years.  all day, he couldn't help but to feel selfish due to wanting the roles to be switched. for bennett to be meeting the friends of his girlfriend, to be the one in the suite with his mama, the one that jason would've bought had it been a different game this evening. the way he wanted bennett to be meeting fans and bullsh*tting with him as jason was getting ready for the biggest game in football.  was he happy for his brother? of course he was, because he knows everything bennett has been through to make it to tonight, to make it to winning. he knows every little detail of what was going on in his baby brother's mind. so of course he was happy, he was supportive. but, it should've been jason. and he can't help but to have that selfish feeling play through his mind as he embraces his brother amid the crowd and the chaos. maybe next year, it'll be jason down here winning the big one instead of bennett. if there is a next year. (c) made by creativian 0 Comments

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